Friday, January 25, 2008
Monday, January 21, 2008
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Its like a plastic film all over my body
and I cant move as fast as I want to
life doesnt move as fast as i want it to.
Waiting for February.
Always fucking waiting for something
All for the want of change
I have gotten pulled
this way and that way
I never pulled anyone
just watched them walk out the door
into the arms of the good guy
seems like all of them have
I am a warm up
I am the January
to the next guys February
what NOT to want
I make that next guy look good for my mistakes
SHE that I have yet to speak of......
off and married happily ever i am sure
Just like the newest
same as the oldest
Loving once is no comfort
I wish I never knew what it was sometimes
"But I love you all",I said.
I scream it.
Reach in this frame.Pull out lust and love and crumble them
Thank you Uncle William.
Th' expense of spirit in a waste of shame"Sonnet 129," 1–8
Is lust in action, and till action, lust
Is perjur'd, murd'rous, bloody, full of blame,
Savage, extreme, rude, cruel, not to trust,
Enjoy'd no sooner but despisèd straight,
Past reason hunted, and no sooner had,
Past reason hated as a swallowed bait
On purpose laid to make the taker mad. . . .
Sunday, January 13, 2008
And so ends an era...
I find it somewhat fitting
what with the new year and all
But we all have things that we will forever be associated with
I am proud this is one of them for me
Way back when I first started I found it to be an easy environment for me to be myself
and I thrive in that atmosphere
but as I returned that spirit was gone
I dont know if it was gone from me or from the company
but if I cannot be myself
I am less effective
so I think its time for me to shine elsewhere
just one more step for me
and so I go....
so long pal.....
Saturday, January 5, 2008
They want so much to have and have more.
And never willing to give up.
Heaven forbid they are seen for what they really are
What is underneath
Anyway..The new year.
THE NEW YEAR.
I woke up on the first and felt better.
I am ready with new resolve
Not wanting the things I wanted before
I also anticipate the prospering
The little feeling of oneness one gets
when left alone.
I just wanna feel that for once.
And I will.
No one will be around to take that away either
but their seems to be an epidemic of adultery on the rise
just give the infected their blanket and point them to the trail of open arms that accept them....
but send them with a warning
a scarlet A
and be sure to burn all that is left
so they never come back
Give natives some blankets warm like the grave.....
.......the end of the frontier and all that you own
under the blankets of all that you've done......