I'm not there......

when all I want is to talk to someone
and all I miss is to be wanted
to know someone walks this earth
with me on their tongue
and she tells her friends of this guy she met
me
and I can be awakened by phone calls are anything else
normal suckers do.

It's lonely
yeah
but I can not pull the strength out of me to be myself
these days I am exhausted all the time
it helps to be so tired
I do not expel energy on over thinking and trying to sell myself to someone
at the same time I dont think I have the energy to like who I am though
small price to pay I suppose....
better than waisting my time missing love that never existed...