Tuesday, September 30, 2008


Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow....

When this world grabs at my neck
it does not let go
until it feels the life slowly leaving in my breath
and then it lets go
A year down and only a little further from the beginning
I always ask
"Am I better?"
I have no idea....
I never know
I just go through the motions
I am proud that I am stronger
and I a feel I know myself a little more
And love?
Love still creeps and haunts me
a relationship so volatile
I Can not walk away
I want the ending
And in a year I can talk of the present
and not the past.....

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Why do you get all the love in the world?

"No one's heard a single word I've said
they don't sound as good outside my head..."

Things wilted this time last year
and I swore they wouldn't wilt again
but they are
its nature I suppose
a cycle of sorts
smiles are elusive and it is starting to become apparent to those around me
I do not desire to be that guy
soured and wilted
and through this process I have become callous
a defense I did not see coming
and I do not expect to get anything out of this
I have learned not to expect anything
especially when it pertains to love and admiration
and its like I am floating out to sea
dark and unstable
I am just letting the madness of the tide take me...
I cannot hope for anything more